I hate that I only post when I am at my wits end - which seems to be all the time lately. I have mentioned that ADHD saved my sons life. If we had not had him tested, we would not have found out about his kidney disease. However if it were not for his kidney disease we might find some relief in trying some med options....but because they can increase blood pressure that is not an option.
I go through phases where I think....this will work....we just need to buckle down and take it one day at a time. It is nice while it lasts. Today is one of those days I feel hopeless...lost. My son is more "out of control" than ever. I can't sit and have a conversation without his legs going, his hands in his face, making noise,s no eye contact, fidgeting with everything and anything. Football is his one safe place, his one time to get rid of some energy and I found out this AM he can't play due to grades. We had a 4 day weekend we could have been working on getting caught up and I find out today. He has always been very successful with school grades wise. Now I find out he is failing two classes. Math being one of them and usually one he excels at. I don't understand....
My marriage is falling apart. We don't talk....we hardly argue. My husband just yells at my son. He has no patience. He acts like he is disappointed that our son is not "normal" or everything he thought he should or would be. I spend most of my time playing ref. He has started sleeping on the couch...saying he just fell asleep there. He gets texts and calls from a single female coworker all the time. When he wants to complain about our son the one time I tell him I just can't listen to it he slams off mad at me. It feels like he resents E and jealous of the time I give him.
The anxiety and worry are suffocating. I feel like I am on the verge of a breakdown. I already take antidepressants and antianxiety meds...I don't know how much longer I can live this way.