Recently I have been realizing that I am suffering from hopelessness. I never really understood that the negative thoughts I have were caused from this. I have always been negative towards myself and my performance. I am generally a happy person with an upbeat personality but I feel this has shadowed some personal problems I have that it even hid it from myself.
I am trying to do better my telling myself when this episodes of horrible perceptions of myself happen by practicing ANTS behavioral therapy. It very new to me and hasn't been advised by my therapist but it helps me see how bad these thoughts are.
I am seeing a therapist and will bring up how to handle it better and anything else that may help.
It has developed into denial of my own diagnoses. However, my diagnoses was confirmed or I began to accept it again because recently I noticed how forgetful I am. It was a funny realization but still had frustration.
On a brighter note I am doing better in school which is helpful when I began to fall into sadness.
This post isn't meant to be a sad post. it is more of a vent or just an expression of how I am feeling. I just wanted to know how others handle these situations and how to stay positive and become more confident in myself.